I love my baby so much he pulled me out of this shitty week. He makes me smile that’s why I love him only a few people can do that lately and I am lucky to have those few.
Real love
<3
I love my girlfriend she is the most amazing person in the world:)
Jacob Vansickle
(Source: i-am-the-oracular-spectacular)
Thanks dad
(Source: zuicidestephaniee)
(Source: happinessisthesongshesings)
Things my dad has told me since Monday.
- You are going nowhere.
- You wont be anything.
- Someday you will have kids and I hope they don’t disappoint you like you’ve disappointed me.
- You are a liar.
- You have no credibility with me.
- You have no drive.
- I dont set goals for you anymore because you are incapable of reaching them.
- I don’t you and the aggrivation so if you don’t like it here get out.
- You are a coaster.
- You don’t even have a job, so what do you do?
- You don’t try in school.
- You’re grades are shitty.
- You have nol future.
- You aer just like your mother.
- NO ONES feelings matter to you as long as you get what you want.
- You are selfish.
- You are pathetic.
- You are not worth my time.
- My main goal is to get you to 18 and get you the fuck out of my house.
- I wish your mouth was in punching distance to me sometimes, cause I would like to hit that look right off your face
Not a big deal I guess unless your father was the one person you ever craved to hear “I am proud of you” from, not a big deal unless you ever wanted a relationsip with your father not a drill sergeant. But it is a big deal to me… I will never forget how trully mean and heartless he can be.
I need some help
Like real help. I am breaking down and everything is falling apart, I have to get it all off my chest but it iis so hard.I am so tired of being such a broken mess. I can’t handle all these emotions that are trying to push their way out of my body, I have so many things that are wrong and I don’t know how to tackle each one, I don’t know who to turn to anymore, it usually gets better after a few days but this time so many things happen before I can fix one part of myself. I am desperately seeking help from anyone who will give it. I am tired of crying all the time and I guess tonight everyone else has something to occupy their time and I don’t want to bother anyone, but I am so alone. I can feel my heart trying to escape my chest and it is the most intense burning feeling I have ever experienced.
It could be over in an instant
I can’t believe you
I have never been more terrified of you than I was today in that car, for you to yell at me until I cry is not ok and just because you pout a little and say you’re sorry will not make it ok. I never thought you would ever be the guy to make me cry but today something in you was different. It was scary and I wont forget….
